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"Hey Dan, wanna play sonic with me?" Phil asked sitting on the sofa, Dan sighed

"No...you go ahead, I'll be in my room," Dan muttered. Dan hasn't been himself lately, school was bumming him out, he hadn't had a proper conversation with his family in weeks, his father never accepted the way Dan was, Dan was Bi and his father didn't like that. Dan didn't have a girlfriend or boyfriend but his dad still didn't like it. His dad could tell Dan liked Phil, wither if was best friends or more than friends his dad could tell, and he still didn't like it. Dan felt that his family was caring less and less with each day. His mum stopped calling, him and his brother never really got along all that great, his father practically hated him.

So he just gave up on trying to call them for a chat, he'd just sit in his room on his computer. Which is where he went now, Dan laid down on his bed, he couldn't explain exactly what he was feeling, Depressed? Stupid? Lame? Unloved? Confused? He didn't know, all he knew was it was stressing him out. Dan looked over at a pencil sharpener, he sat up and picked it up, pulling it apart, he grabbed the blade and looked at it.

"No this is wrong." he muttered setting it back down, or was it? "One little cut couldn't hurt," he muttered to himself, people say it helps you forget your troubles, so why not forget his troubles? Dan pressed the blade to his arm and gently pulled it along his skin. Slowly the blood showed up, it shocked Dan, "One more." Dan promised himself, one more little cut couldn't hurt. So that's what he did, he put a little cut on his wrist, and another further up his arm, soon enough he had 5 bleeding cuts along his arm. He looked at his arm and got scared again.

What had he done. Dan put the blade in a tiny box next to his bed. He crawled under the covers and held his arm closely to himself. What had he done.

Dan woke up a few hours later, he pulled the covers off and stretched, he felt a pull on his arm. He looked and saw the dried blood. Dan HATED what he had done. He wished he could go back and not do it. "Dan, you awake?" Phil asked though the door, Dan stuck his arm under the covers

"Yeah, I am." Dan called back, Phil opened the bedroom door and smiled

"Just wanted to check on you, what do you want for dinner?" Phil asked, Dan gave his best smile

"Doesn't matter to me, you pick." Dan said, his arm was stinging and burning, he winced but kept a fake smile. Phil smiled back and left to go make dinner, Dan removed his arm from the covers. His cuts were covered in dried blood. Dan jumped up and dashed for the bathroom. He knew he had to wash the blood off, maybe it wasn't so bad under the dried blood. Maybe they were not noticeable. Dan turned on the water and stuck his arm under, he ran his hand over his arm washing off the blood. He pulled his arm out of the water and looked at it, he frowned, red lines still there. He wished he could just wash off the cuts, he wished they weren't there. He frowned and accepted the fact that they'd always be there, He shut off the water and walked out of the bathroom.

"Dan, I'm making pasta, wanna come watch master chef with me?" Phil asked from the lounge.

"Ahh..sure, just give me a minute," Dan called to Phil, he quickly skipped back into his room and grabbed a jumper to over his arms, returning to the hall he walked into the lounge where a smiling Phil met him. Dan smiled at Phil

"Come sit down," Phil said patting the spot next to him. Dan hesitate he really didn't want Phil to notice the cuts or touch his arm the wrong way and have it end up hurting, but Dan took a seat next to Phil and gave his best smile, "There's my happy Dan." Phil said grinning, Phil was his best friend, he had to make sure Phil didn't find out about the cuts.

A week later Dan had 21 cuts on his arms, he was getting used to the cutting now, the cuts itched and burned but he didn't care. He was feeling worse and w, he fell pathetic, worthless, stupid, ugly. To make the feelings go away, he would cut. Deeper and deeper, more and more. He passed out once but woke up fine. He was careful when he did it and where he did it to make sure Phil didn't catch him.

"Is something bugging you?" Phil asked Dan one day. Dan looked at Phil,

"No...No why would you think that?" Dan asked flustered, Phil was shocked

"What, No I was just concerned because you haven't really been yourself lately." Phil said looking into Dan's chocolaty eyes.

"I'm fine really," Dan said, he wished that was the truth, he wished that he could promise everything was okay.

"Okay, But I'm here if you need someone to talk to," Phil said with a friendly smile,

"Ughh, get off my back nothing is wrong." Dan shouting getting up and walking off.

"Dan," Phil said getting up and following him, Dan went to his bed room and shut the door. Phil walked up and tried the door handle, but Dan must have locked it. "Dan, Please, Talk to me." Phil begged, he wanted to know what was wrong with his best friend. Dan didn't say anything, he was having a bad day already. He didn't know why he snapped, he didn't mean to snap at Phil.

Dan got out his blade and pressed it to his skin. He lightly pulled it across, he wanted as the crimson blood started to show up. Dan pushed the blade down harder. Trying to get that satisfying feeling, Dan pulled out a tissue and lightly dabbed the cuts. "Dan, please"  Phil said though the door again. Dan sighed knowing he had to wash his arm so the blood wouldn't get everywhere. Dan held his arm close and opened the door. Phil was standing there, "I'm sorry," Phil said with a frown, he just wanted to help, he had these weird feelings for Dan, ones he couldn't explain.

Dan pushed past him and into the bathroom. "Dan, what happened to your arm?" Phil asked noticing some blood running down his arm.

"Nothing! I just fell in my room and scratched it," Dan lied, he didn't want to tell Phil and he didn't want Phil to know either.

"Oh, okay" Phil said, he believed him, they were both clumsy, but he still didn't understand why Dan was always so upset recently. Dan washed off his arm with a sigh,

"I'm sorry for bothering you," Phil said walking off to the lounge, Phil sat on the couch with a frown he continued to watch whatever was on. Dan quietly sat next to him, he got no reaction from Phil, he rested his head on Phil's shoulder and looked at him. Phil looked over and saw the sad looking Dan. Phil put his arms around Dan. "Please, tell me whats on your mind." Phil begged, he just wanted to help, Dan cuddled into Phil's arms,

"You did nothing wrong," Dan whispered, He closed his eyes as Phil slightly rocked them back and forth, "Nothing is wrong, I'm just a little stressed," Dan said, that was half true, he knew he could tell Phil, he just didn't want to. He knew Phil wouldn't get mad at him, he'd want to help, he was just scared that Phil would send him to a hospital or call his parents or leave himself. Now that Phil noticed his arm, he couldn't continue with just his arm, he'd have to go further.

"Do you want to go out to dinner tonight?" Phil asked, he wanted to treat Dan, Maybe take a little bit of the stress off him. Dan smiled,

"That would be nice." Dan said, he knew Phil cared and only wanted the best for him. Phil gave Dan a squeeze "Where should we go?"

They went to a nice dinner then decided to walk back to the flat. "So then I told you not to brother cause I'd only be there a minute," Phil said as they walked home, Dan gave him a small smile, it was nice to get his mind off cutting, he had a good time with Phil, he didn't say much but he gladly listened to Phil. Dan's phone rang,

"Hello?" Dan asked, it was his father,

"Son!? Your school called and said you dropped out!? What is that about, you get back to the school, I didn't play for you to be a drop out failure!" His father shouted at him, Dan stayed silent taking the verbal beating. "Well say something," his father demanded,

"It just wasn't for me." Dan muttered, looking down at the ground as he walked

"Wasn't for you? Then what is? Figure something out soon." his father said before hanging up on him. Dan stayed silent for the rest of the walk home.

"I think I'm just going to go to bed," Dan said once they arrived back home. Phil nodded

"Okay, sleep well." Phil said with a smile, Dan nodded and went into his room. Dan had the horrible feeling again. He could always to talk to Phil but instead he pulled off his shirt and picked up his blade. Standing in front of his mirror he pressed the blade to his hip and drug the blade over the skin. He did the same to the other hip then pressed hard into his arm over and over again. Looking in the mirror he saw the blood running down his body.

He raised the blade and pressed it to his shoulders and cut there. A few more times to his hips and arms again. He was having a good night with Phil then one phone call ruined it all. He pressed the blade to his shoulders again looking for that burning pleasure feeling. The room started to turn and everything went black.

Phil was worried about Dan, he didn't seam himself, always in his room, hardly eating, hardly speaking. He had to force himself into making videos, because he just didn't want to or he was to tired. Phil was sitting on the couch in the lounge thinking, he didn't want to force Dan to tell him but he knew that would be the best thing to do.

Phil stood up and walked over to Dan's door, he knocked "Dan, can we talk?" Phil called though the door. There was no answer, "Dan," Phil said again knocking. His first though was that Dan may have fallen asleep opening the door slightly, Phil peeked in. What he saw, he couldn't believe, Dan passed out in a pool of his own blood. Phil rushed over to Dan, "Dan," Phil said, he wasn't breathing, Phil checked for a heart beat, -----'thump' ----- thump Phil grabbed his phone and dialed 999. "Stay with me Dan, Please." Phil begged with tears in his eyes.


Beep, Beep, Beep, Beep "He has lost a lot of blood" beep, beep, beep, "We need to get his boy to the hospital now!" Bee—eeeeee


Phil was sat in the waiting room, he was scared, lonely, frightened, he felt sick to his stomach, he was waiting for news, any news. It was a good hour before a doctor came out to talk to Phil, "We have him stable but we don't have enough of his blood type here to give him, we can get some in but it might be too late." The doctor explained

"Can I give blood?" Phil asked, he wanted to help in anyway possible,

"Only if you have the same blood type as him or are O negative" The doctor explained, "Do you know your type?" The doctor asked, Phil thought for a moment the shook his head. "Alright, come with me, we'll run some tests." the doctor said nodding his head towards the door.

After some tests were done it was found that he and Dan shared the same blood type. Phil gave his blood then got to see Dan.

Dan was paler than usual. He was hooked up to machines, Phil sat in a chair next to Dan's bed and took his hand, "You ass," Phil muttered with a frown, he brought his hand up to his lips and kissed the back of it. Phil sat there with Dan for what felt like hours. Eventually Dan began to stir. He groaned and tried to turn over. "No no Dan, you have to stay on your back." Phil said gently turning him back on his back, Dan's hips were bandaged so he had to stay on his back.

"Phil?" Dan muttered, Phil smiled "Yes, I'm right here," Phil said taking Dan's hand again, Dan felt their fingers entwine together,

"where am I?" Dan asked, he had bandages on his arms, hips and shoulders. "Phil, it hurts!" Dan groaned,

"You're in the hospital because you cut yourself you jerk! How could you do this to me!? You died for a minute, you could have died completely if I didn't find you when I did." Phil said, he felt bad for saying all that to him but he needed to get it off his chest. Phil had tears in his eyes, he never wanted to loose Dan, ever. He wished Dan would have just told him, he could have helped.

"I'm sorry," Dan muttered, he saw the pain and sadness in Phil's eyes, "I just felt worthless, like no one cared or loved me anymore." Dan continued, Phil stood and sat on the edge of Dan's bed, he leaned down and pressed his lips to Dan's,

"I care," Phil whispered pulled away slightly. Dan smiled, truly smiled, Phil cared, that's all that mattered, the man he'd give anything to be with, cared. "Please don't do this again" Phil begged, he didn't want to sit there hoping that Dan would wake up again. Dan nodded

"Anything for you." Dan whispered, Phil smiled

"I gave blood for you," Phil said taking Dan's hand again.

"Did you?" Dan asked grinning, Phil nodded,

"If I had to I would a million more times, But I better not have to." Phil said,

Dan nodded "I promise." he whispered looking into Phil's eyes. They shared another kiss before calling the nurse in to tell them that Dan was finally awake.
So here it is, My story!! Woo! Finally right? Haha

I typed this up (the 7 pages it was on paper) and edited it in 57 minutes just for you guys. (the editing was probably shit so don't mind it)

Anyway, Sorry about this story, A lot of people were requesting it. I sort of based it around that screen cap (picture above) but if the date on it were like 2011 So yeah. Anyway. Here it is

Enjoy!!

Comments are always lovely ^^ <33

I don't own Dan or Phil.

These events did NOT happen
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Ramengirl2004 Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2017
MY HEART CANT TAKE IT 
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IndiaLovespugs Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2016
When I saw the the picture I felt like my lungs were gonna explode...THE PHEELS!!!
Luv da story btw >w<
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peytb123 Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
I'm phucking crying
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IndiaLovespugs Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2016
You said this on my birthday o-o
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baxterxdog3 Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2016  Hobbyist Artist
Omg I was tense the whole story I felt the emotion omg you are really good at riding congrats oh wow that was something else you my good fellow are one good writer wow the emotion the colour of feelings ... I gasp
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HollywoodUndeadTrash Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2016  Student Digital Artist
o god
the feels
there coming for m e
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Kokona1Zakone Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2016
Nobody gave you the right to make me cry! ;-;
The feels though AmazingPhil 7 Phan 2 Phan 1 Danisnotonfire 14 Danisnotonfire 17 Phan Emotes (Dan/Phil or both): I'm Flying Phan Emotes (Dan/Phil or both): Phil Kisses Lion AmazingPhil 6 Danisnotonfire 13 AmazingPhil 3 Phan Emotes (Dan/Phil or both): falling for you 
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AwkwardAmateur Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I almost cried and I was screaming at my phone but then that bit of Phan came in...
All better
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AwkwardAmateur Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
"I just felt worthless. Like no one cared or loves me anymore"

Hmmm let's see...
We have me
Onision
The girl who wrote this fic
Phil
Tyler Oakley
Phil
That red head from the Dan And Phil reaction video
Phil
Phil
Every girl who's ever seen you (almost)
Every guy who's ever seen you (most of them)
Phil
Jaiden from JaidenAnimations
Phil
And Phil.
Oh, and did I mention Phil?
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mlpIceheart Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
What about Phil?
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KawaiiPonyGirl Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
"Onision" OH GREG WANTS TO HAVE SEX WITH THE DUDE! WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT!?
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Kokona1Zakone Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2016
I think you forgot the Phandom too :P
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ConsellationsCrazy Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2016  Student Digital Artist
Nah, you forgot Phil.
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AwkwardAmateur Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
"-----'thump'-----'thump'"
This is gospel for the fallen ones
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KawaiiPonyGirl Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
LOCKED AWAY IN PERMANENT SLUMBER 
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AwkwardAmateur Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Danny nooooooooooo
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WebkinzGamer Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2016  Student Digital Artist
"Ughh, get off my back nothing is wrong." Dan shouting getting up and walking off.







that just makes me cracks up and thinks of a teenage girl
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nerdsauce999 Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2016
I'm literally sobbing.





What's wrong with me????
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phangirl22 Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2016
I cried
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Teardrop-Blue Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
this is amazing! i cried so hard it made me think about what im doing to myself just like what dan did. awesome story, 5th time reading it xx
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SprainedHeart Featured By Owner Edited Nov 13, 2015  Hobbyist Artist
If this only happened irl..
Q-q
Phan Emotes (Dan/Phil or both): I'm Flying 
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Phil-And-Dan-Lover Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Mmm. Maybe not a good thing to happen irl. 
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askthefnafcrew87 Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2015
i love it so much! <3 Heart Phan 2 
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Phil-And-Dan-Lover Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Aww thank you!! :)
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XxXAmIXxX Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
The only reason I did not cry : I don't have any tears left
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Phil-And-Dan-Lover Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Awww 
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XxXAmIXxX Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Yeah she's too much tears
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amature1artist Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Why u do dis?! Who gave u the right to break mah heart??

Although it was a great story😂❤️
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Phil-And-Dan-Lover Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
:huggle: 

Thanks
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BasketCas3 Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I CRI OMFG
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Phil-And-Dan-Lover Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
:) xx
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Amaya-Loves-You Featured By Owner May 28, 2015  Student Digital Artist
WHY DO I TAKE IT APON MYSELF TO READ THESE AT 1AM ALL I DO IS SOB 
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Phil-And-Dan-Lover Featured By Owner May 28, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Aww! :heart:
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MayaMcKendryThePhan Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2015
AMAZING!Phan 1 
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Phil-And-Dan-Lover Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
thank you :)
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MayaMcKendryThePhan Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2015
billboard: MY PLEASURE 
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MayaMcKendryThePhan Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2015
Wait a sec, DID SOMEONE JUST REPLY TO ME??? AAHHHHHH!!!!!!
i feal speshul Neko Emoji-37 (Yay) [V2] 
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zadr1997 Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2015
this i the best story ever i am crying now omg i love it so
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Phil-And-Dan-Lover Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Aww Thanks :) 
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arose1324 Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2015
Oh now I'm crying. Great story tho.
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Phil-And-Dan-Lover Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Aww 
Thanks! 
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HappyCookie7 Featured By Owner Edited Jun 14, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Dawwwwwww so cute!Heart 
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Phil-And-Dan-Lover Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks :)
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SLenDErsUMmeRSevE Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Phaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnn :heart:
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Phil-And-Dan-Lover Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
!! <3
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batgirl-chibi Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
This so sweet and so sad T.T 
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Phil-And-Dan-Lover Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks :)
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Carrotz8 Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2014
T^T 

That's all I have to say
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Phil-And-Dan-Lover Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Awww. :huggle: is all I have to say <3 xx
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Carrotz8 Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2014
<3
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